big brother of the prodigal son… and that, “Cranky holiness is usually the result of living
with a wounded and rejected spirit while seeking to live right in your own strength.”
is easy.. His burden is light. I’ve had a lot of practice at learning to wait on and rely on
God’s wisdom and strength in homeschooling (17 years) especially.
the increased dependance on comfort food. It wasn’t a struggle when I gained it before
because I didn’t care.. all I cared about was school.
found some things I can get away with eating and not be sick and I am a different kind
of “sick”.. a sick that makes me happy when I eat bad food (peanut M&M’s and fries
are my favorites) and sad and cranky when I eat good (holy, wholesome) food.
making me even sadder and crankier.
gained I started repenting for trying to loose weight in my own strength (it wasn’t
working.. obviously) and started praying that God would help me be good.. but it was
a sad, cranky “Make me holy.” prayer.
to crave the right food and to fill me with His wholeness so that I can stop running
to comfort food.
and fruit salad there, but what I really wanted was their chicken strips and fries..
so I decided to order them and enjoy them.. while I continue to wait on God to change
both starting to feel like this could be home. We’ve always wanted AL to be home..
and even more so after our last move.. if just to avoid moving again (moving is so not fun). After visiting our good friends in Florida just two weeks ago, I’d have to say that it’s a
God step in the right direction.. toward wholeness and happy holiness.